Hello dolls and tonka truck!! So like always your girl Cali is on a mission. However this mission is different from any other of my missions. I’m going on a mission to find and love myself fully. Now as cliché as it might sound, it’s a very deep and spiritual, personal, and emotional journey that will produce maturity, clarification, and growth. Over the years I began to lose sight of myself. On the surface and amongst friends and family I seem well put together, and like I have my head on straight. Truth be told in my darkest hours I realize I’m going down a road that I’m not 100% confident about. I’m slowly evolving into a stranger. I’ve lost passion for things that brought my spirit to life, things that I couldn’t envision my life without. I almost feel like I’ve became a robot and I’m emotionless. Lately I’ve just been going through life, but I haven’t allowed myself to truly feel life’s presence. So I’m going back to what I know, God and writing. This journey I plan on focusing on God, and my dreams. Which coincidently in my book go hand and hand. Another reason I decided to take this journey is because I slowly see my life passing me by, and things aren’t going as I predicted them to. As a result of that I began to see myself becoming bitter and pessimistic. In a way my sanity, faith, happiness, perception and hope for anything amazing to happen to me has begun to slowly chip away. With that said I plan on rebirthing myself. Into the woman I know God has set me to be, as appose to this woman who’s allowing situations and circumstances to foreshadow my heart. I will keep a daily journal and make it a goal to write down two things I’ve down, and or acknowledge about myself to make myself love me that much more. I also plan on falling back in love, with LOVE! I promise I’ll try not to bore you! I’ll update my lovely toy box once a week to let you guys know how this mission is going. Hell maybe we can all take it together or maybe you can see how my journey goes and then you’ll do it.
I completely understand where your coming from! This is a journey that I myself am trying to follow in my own life. At times I find myself venturing off and going back to my old negative mentality and then I have to remind myself of why it is that I'm doing this and the benefits that come from it. It can be so draining to have a negative mindet and loose yourself in such. My advice that I would give to you would just be to continuously partake in those things that you truly enjoy doing as well as finding new things that are rewarding. With that will come pleasure and I guarantee that all your other desires will fall into place. I PLAN TO TAKE THIS JOURNEY WITH YOU!
ReplyDeleteaww thats beautiful let me know how your journey goes! you make my heart smile! it feels good to know im not alone on this quest!
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